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I woke up with an idea that came, fully formed, as if it had always been there just waiting for me to stumble across it… The idea is so simple, yet powerful, that I feel like talking about it in a whisper – as if to speak or write it out loud might burst the bubble of excitement and possibility I’m feeling. As if reality might crash in and mark it with a ‘impractical’ or ‘undesirable’ or any of a number of idea-stopping words…

But…I have to put it out there, because this is, in essence, for you guys – and big time for me, of course! As the vehicle for the expression of joy and empowerment that can bring it to you: If it is wanted. If it can be useful. You, the readers, are the only ones who can answer that for me…

Firstly, this thing seems to be fluid by nature in its mode of conveyance – internet classroom, radio, blog, in person, phone teleconference…anything that can work as a mode of expression, all driven by a book or… a blog or something. I’m getting ahead of myself. Here’s the idea(s), fully formed, pulled out of nowhere (now here, hehe) upon waking:

“Wouldn’t it be neat to tell my stories of awakening in, like, a cookbook form? Like…story, followed by the key concepts it brought up and illustrated, and a how-to of how to do these things for yourself. Wouldn’t it be neat to travel from place to place, collecting new stories all the time even as I go from workshop to workshop, teaching the things in the stories in person? Like each of the ‘recipes’ would be condensed into a Menu that people could choose from, but instead of a price for each item, there would be an amount of time – and even a wine list perhaps of recommended extras that would go best with each of the ‘meals’. Hehe. Like the wines would be the things that are just experienced by the participants, given by me – like, light body activation, or ‘meeting your guides’ meditation, etc. Then what would be the dessert? Gotta have the dessert. Hmmm! Wouldn’t it be neat to do a monthly radio show where I share the best tidbits? Wouldn’t it be neat to travel for the good-weather part of the year and then return to home base and work on a new book? A Cookbook for the Soul, Recipes for Awakening to Your Highest Potential. “

Here are some clarifying ideas that have been coming to me…

I am, by nature, a jack of all trades… Passingly good at just about everything, specialized in nothing… I’ve found this frustrating as far as discovering ‘my path’ in life because, well, it means that I can’t go and say This Is What I Do. All I’ve been able to say thus far is This Is Who I Am – At the Moment. I’m actually really good at that.

I am charismatic and gregarious, able to relate to just about anyone, in a way that they can understand and make use of. I seem to have the ability, likely gained from all of my time working so hard using my empathy to be sure I pleased people, to drop into the language and mindset being used by whoever I’m talking to… My husband is a master of this when it comes to speaking concepts. I seem to be a master of this when it comes to describing energy and intent and life.

I want to be fluid and alive and creative and fulfilled and useful and empowering – but I haven’t known how because I kept expecting to specialize. I have learned SO many things, it’s not even funny, all in search of The Thing that would be My Thing… What I have ended up with is a ton of things I love… but none of them The Thing that I am supposed to go out there and share with others… I’ve also been in many environments – in person, over the phone, radio, internet classrooms, one on one and in big groups. I’m passingly good in expressing through all of them, but specialized in none (sound familiar? )

I loved traveling across the country, asking God/Source/Whatever to put me in touch with those I was meant to be in touch with. Having a reason to do this – not just a reason, but something that fulfills me and that I get to share with others? I find that idea endlessly exciting.

I know that I am of the family Archangel Michael – the empowerers, the bringers of light and life to those who are ready for it and who desire it. Acting in that capacity is what I find most fulfilling. Most enjoyable. I’ve had an odd time of figuring all this out because I kept running in to the concepts of working with just one person, and working with a group – a if they were supposed to happen simultaneously or something, but I never knew how. Now I think I know…they build upon each other, the experiences with individuals giving rise to ideas and practices that can be shared with and used by lots of people.

I have learned the foundations for so many self-healing, self-empowering practices that I often spontaneously come up with my own techniques from combinations of many other practices – new things to be shared. I want it all to grow with me – the idea of just teaching the same exact things over and over and over sounds utterly depressing, to me. I want to be a force for synchronicity, bringing those things most needed in the moment by those who have requested my presence…

I’m very practical in what I do. I want the things I share to be cheap, easy, comfortable and powerful – and I think that’s what a lot of people are looking for. There are so many things out there that people can buy, earn, whatever… I had someone ask me who my Reiki master was, as if I was being judged by my pedigree or something – that was weird, but actually very real in many people’s perceptions. I’m not about that at all – I’m about easy, accessible empowerment for everyone. Self empowerment, that they can thing bring to others in any way they like – nothing I share would be trademarked or have strictures placed on it. Hehe, I would be OpenSource, like they say about computer programs whose code is given out to anyone who knows what to do with it, to allow them to change it and make new things out of it. I’m not interested in trademarking or pedigreeing or anything like that – I’m way too interested in being Real for that to appeal to me.

You know that whole ‘when the student is ready, the teacher will come’ saying? Well… I’m thinking of taking that to a literal place… I have no idea if this is possible, but… What if I just put myself out there, allowing people who feel inspired and resonate to form groups that then book me to come out and teach/share with them? That the fee or whatever be the traveling costs for me split among them – food, plane ticket or gas, hotel. That I let them choose the venue and pay for it and do all that busy work that I don’t much care for, getting the event together and I just show up?

This is something I can do, now… I kept thinking that I would have to be fully healed and together and to have reached some exalted level of consciousness or something in order to be of service… Or that I would have had to have written lots of books and Become Somebody before I could really teach people anything. But what if another human being, sharing their own pain and triumphs – so similar yet speaking from the other side of having worked through it and triumphed… What if that’s what people are really looking for? A sharing and guiding, more than a teaching/instructing?

I’m not sure, but, this seems to be a culmination of everything I have become…like the natural conclusion for the next new beginning… maybe this is that seed that the Great Round stage was talking about

So… what do you think? Is this something that can be done? Is it something that is worth being done – would people find it useful? Are there things I haven’t thought of?

Normally, when I have a new possibly life-changing idea I cherish it and keep it safe and hidden for a really long time, working out all the details before sharing it with anyone, and only then first sharing it with people I know really well. For some reason – and I honestly don’t know what that reason is – it felt really important to just…put this out there. And see what happens. So, that’s what I’m doing.

There are pieces I don’t have, or something – ideas that people offering opinions can give me that can bring it all together. You, the reader(s) are the glue that would hold this together, and the whole idea is to be OpenSource… It doesn’t get more leading edge, in the moment open source than this.

So please, if you have anything at all you’d like to share, or an opinion, or an idea, or, hehe – if you want to be my first booking, I’ll take that too, hehehe